According to FreeDictionary.com, a phobia is “a persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of a specific thing or situation that compels one to avoid it, despite the awareness and reassurance that it is not dangerous.” I have struggled with this irrational fear of needles and spiders since I was a young child.
Most individuals understand my fear of spiders. It’s funny when I scream and run away whenever I see one close by. I have several stories where a police officer or nice gentleman has helped me remove one from my car.
The needle one is a different story. It’s not funny and I grow more ashamed of it the older I get. It impedes on me getting timely medical work done. I procrastinate getting blood tests done that I need every six months and I’ve cancelled having a colonoscopy twice due to my fear of IV’s.
I am proud to say I have worked through some of the issues with having blood tests. I no longer have to be sedated to have a blood test. In fact, I can now go into a doctor’s office and get tested without crying. Wow!
I still get nervous and it is obvious to everyone around me. I realized that my fear was in the needle going in. I calm down once it is inserted. I explain my fear to the nurse and ask that they continue putting the alcohol on my arm until right before they insert the needle. I hope this helps someone else. I also work on calming myself before I go and drink lots of water to make my veins easier to locate.
I’m still working on the IV’s. I am scheduled for a colonoscopy and a second endoscopy in the next several months. I’ll use an anti-anxiety medicine to help me remain calmer and not have to be held down. I had an Endoscopy this week and did well with the IV, while on the medicine.
My needle phobia goes back to when I was around two years old and was hospitalized. Mom says I had bruises on me from all the medical tests and blood work. I have no memory of this and yet, it still impacts me today. Wow!
What are your fears and phobias?